Just a thought

Am drunk, watching Captain America. I’d marry the shit outta Steve Rogers.

…that name is fucking everywhere…

late-night drives through the country with Regina, part three (feat. Paramore)

…

you are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first… I loved you first
beneath the sheets
of paper lies my truth
I have to go, I have to go
your hair was long when we first met…

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I listened to a TED talk the other day about regret and how, when we’ve made a mistake, our most basal instinct is to push it away, make it disappear, pretend it didn’t happen. We think that, by making the mistake go away, we can forget we even made it and not let it affect us. The regret is so overwhelming that we try to rewrite our memories to make the mistake vanish from existence. I wish it worked.

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I am going away for awhile
but I’ll be back, don’t try and follow me
‘cause I’ll return as soon as possible
see I’m trying to find my place
but it might not be here where I feel safe
but we all learn to make mistakes

and run, from them, from them
with no direction
we run from them, from them
with no conviction

cause I’m just one of those ghosts
traveling endlessly
don’t need no roads
in fact they follow me
and we just go in circles… 

sometimes I think I’m not meant to interact with humans, ever.

I can’t wait to get out of this goddamn house.

today was so awesome but then it turned sour and suck and I’m so sorry.

the emotions finally hit me.

late-night drives with through the country with regina, part two.

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I wish I could see a field below
I wish I could hear you whispering low
but you don’t live downtown no more
and everything must come and go 

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and she was listening to the sound of heaven shaking
thinking about puddles
puddles and mistakes 
cause it’s been
turpentine and patches
it’s been
cold, cold Campbell’s from the can
and
they were just two jerks playing with matches
cause that’s all they knew how to
play 

…

I don’t know what I’d do if there weren’t songs to express all the feels I’ve got going on. 

I lost my voice, and currently sound like a pubescent boy and/or Lindsay Lohan on a bad day!

Also, hello 5:15 am. It’s been a while. How have you been?